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August 23rd, 2014

As the wheel turns... @ 11:43 pm

Current Mood: indescribable indescribable

I'll warn, this is a long post....

Nox will help you endure ;)





Work has been... indescribable lately. I'm sure a lot of you remember I made mention on lack of hours in the form of less than 40hrs a week? Well, this week I was asked to work Wed and Thurs (my two of three off days from work) I of course was eager to do so letting them know I had appointments to keep (I'd previously scheduled Friday off to take Nox to his 4mo doctor visit... can you believe he's already 4mo?! Poor little guy had to get 4 more shots *pout*) Wed and Thurs were Jason and my follow up visits (3 and 4) with the marriage counselor (more on that below) Work was fine with that since they wanted me to cover for the receiving clerk, so they could shove her, on the floor to help retrain new checkers that are having major issues.

Friday they pulled me into the office with both supervisors and the manager (which made me nervous... I don't know why I always assume I'm in trouble LOL!) Anyway, the manager asked me if I was flexible...? Yes... I am... I need money, of course I'm flexible. I was told that they want me to work Mon-Sat training to be a back-up for the PR clerk and covering Sat as the receiving clerk until they get some other person they plan to train for receiving clerk for the position Sat. Making me a Mon-Fri employee again? This wasn't solidified, but hinted at. I'm not really sure about that part as it was followed by the statement I would be a 'floater' put in any position I was needed (since I'll be the only one in the department that almost knows every single position... PR clerk will rectify that.) The inconsistency and losing my 3 days off is kind of a bummer (I really liked getting to sleep in and only work two days at a time LOL!)but, I look at it like this, use me as you will for now, and if the opportunity presents itself, I can take all the knowledge you've given me and move on with it. Regardless, I'm still making a dollar more an hour, and that is made of win!

So, you heard that right, 6 days a week! I need the overtime right now, so this is a blessing to catch up on bills and save for Christmas gifts for the kids and pay for the two mini vacations I'll be taking next Labor day weekend and for Jason and my anniversary at the end of Oct. (Dragon con! We are going! YAY! We bought tickets at the con last year and after finding out I was pregnant figured it wasn't going to be viable this year, but we live 2.5 hours away, and a good friend of ours, Linda, is willing to share her room with all of us, so we are going to go for Friday and Sat! I can't wait to see everyone! We have a group that gets together every con now, like a little geek family LOL! =D It's going to be a blast, so expect updates on that in the near future :P)

The six day work week will start when I come back from my vacation, but for how long I'm wondering? I have to tell my D&D group that the game is going to have to get put on hiatus until this is done. I'm having a hard time running it with everything else on my plate, and I hope they understand :( Jason said he can try to run a game while I'm so busy, so I can play to, but I don't know how practical that will be trying to cram all my homework in during the work week and my one day off *sigh* This really depresses me to think about as I feel like I have no time for anything in my life I really want to do. I keep telling myself, two more years to go and I'll have my degree, eye on the prize!

Counseling with Jason has seemed rather pointless. We have both saw the counselor together twice and separately once, but he seemed to just tell us to 'listen to each other' (which we don't have a problem talking or discussing our problems, what we are having a problem with is finding the 'root' of our problems hence why we hired him.)

He, the counselor, also kind of irritated me on our single session by seemingly concentrating on parts of my past (that to me didn't really have anything to do with Jason and me but was more of an 'interesting topic' for him to explore.) For those of you that don't know, during the ages of 16 to 18 I was a runaway and during that time I was a dancer and prostitute to survive. It isn't something I am proud of, but it is what it is. The counselor seemed to take special interest in this fact asking me all kinds of questions on it etc, and it started to feel like maybe he was thinking on it too much especially when I went to leave and he wanted to give me a prolonged hug... it felt strained for me as I was getting weird vibes from him. I'm not sure if he was just trying to be comforting or cop a feel. I like to think he was just wanting to be nice, and I am leaving it at that for now.

I'm trying not to be judgmental, but this guy doesn't seem very professional. His office is connected to another business where he seemingly rents a room that has two chairs and a couch (all of which are mismatched and kind of tattered) the floors need a major vacuuming, his desk is set up in what looks like a closet against the wall with papers and books stacked up on the floor, and there is religious propaganda all over the walls. I'm not a religious person, I believe there is a god, but I don't necessarily believe any one religion's vision on that god/gods. (Not to mention when he was scheduling our appointments his calendar was pretty open... not much business going on there eh Doc?) But yeah, these thoughts are bouncing around in my head wondering if the way he keeps his office and has no one coming to see him if he's very good at his job... at the least, he's not giving a very good impression other than being a nice person. We have one more free session with him from my work's employee assistant fund, and I think that will be the last time we see him if he doesn't give us some actual advice that we can't give ourselves.

Some awesomeness....

The beautiful frostydragon, (You can find her here --> http://frostydragon.livejournal.com/ or here --> http://twintwosgirl.deviantart.com/ has made me a lovely birthday gift art of spanky proportions! I expressed to her that I grew pretty fond of the Cloudy with a chance of Meatballs movies but thought the main character needed a spanking for all his blatant disregard of most everyone else, and so:



How awesome is that? =D

Speaking of art, I got a notice from redbubble that someone bought a pic of mine and had it put on a throw pillow! :)
 
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From:dungeonwriter
Date:August 24th, 2014 11:15 am (UTC)
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Hugs, worried about you. Have you considered another therapist?

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/08/20/marriage-counselors_n_1811685.html

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From:katje0711
Date:August 24th, 2014 03:59 pm (UTC)
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I was thinking the same thing! I've never heard of a therapist hugging their patient. That sounds very unprofessional and I would probably report them.
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 24th, 2014 06:45 pm (UTC)
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It felt.... off to say the very least. I can't be sure if I'm projecting those feelings or if they are truly present, so I don't want to rush to conclusions. He could have just been wanting to be nice, even if I didn't feel that way.
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 24th, 2014 06:47 pm (UTC)
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The therapist was given to us via my job. It is an employee assistance offered through Magellen (sp?) Anyway, we only have one session left for free, and we planned to pretty much break it off after this last visit either way.
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From:ladymidath
Date:August 24th, 2014 12:36 pm (UTC)
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Nox is so cute, 4 months already. WOW.
Find another counselor, this one seems a little off from what you have said in your post. You know, I think that most of us have done things in our past that we look back on and go, 'oh crap.' I know I have, but I don't know why the counselor would focus on that as it would have no bearing on what is happening with you now.
How are things between you and Jason? I hope they are better now. Hugs
YAY for DragonCon, I hope you post lots of pics. :-D
Wow, it's all happening at work, I am sure the extra money will come in handy. I am hardly getting any hours lately but the good news is I have started writing a new story. :-)

Great piece of art hon. :-) I feel horrible that I haven't written anything for your birthday, but I promise to rectify that. :-)
Huge hugs and take care.
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 24th, 2014 06:43 pm (UTC)
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I know right?! He's growing like a weed! =D

That's how I felt, that part of my past really has nothing to do with Jason and my current relationship. Although he'd likely justify being a marriage counselor that he was asking those questions to see how it effected 'us' as a couple :/ We will see him for one last time, and then we are done.

Jason and I have been doing well lately, but our fights are always like that... we do great for a few months and them BAM! we blow up at each other. Hopefully this last incident cleared the air enough to be done with whatever was the root cause.

Yes! YAY DC! =D I'm really looking forward to it!

Extra money is sorely needed at the moment as we are recovering from paying all those medical bills and me being on maternity leave for so long.

Hours are good, but I still feel like I've been made into their bitch which is a bit disconcerting :/

I love it! =D She is a great artist! Awesome that she chose a hamburger to have her sitting on to! LOL! XD

New story! Woot! Do tell! =D

Don't worry my sweet, I know you've had a LOT going on between work, the grandkids, and kids, among other things. It can be really hard to get motivated with all that going on I know.

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From:ladymidath
Date:August 24th, 2014 09:33 pm (UTC)
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Sometimes it's good to clear the air rather than have things festering. The counselor sounds a little out there, I am sure you will be able to find another one that might be a little more helpful. :-)

She is an awesome artist and the hamburger was a great idea. :-D

The new story is a crossover and it will be heavily featuring Taneleer Tivan The Collector. Since seeing Guardians Of The Galaxy, I have been on a real Collector kick. I can't help it, I love the way Benicio Del Toro portrays him. :-)

Glad to hear you are able to go t DC, sadly I missed Smash but I sure as hell ain't missing Comic Con in September.

I will work on a nice spanky story for you, I have time since I haven't been getting many hours lately. Things have been so eerily quiet at work. :-(
Speaking of which, I hope things go well at work for you, it is god that you are getting the extra hours and money. Hopefully that might take a little stress off things.
Hugs and take care. :-)
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 26th, 2014 09:03 pm (UTC)
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It is, I think we are going to take a break from therapy as it didn't seem to do anything other than waste our time :/

I love looking at that picture... it brings a smile to my face whenever I see it :)

Sounds fun, I'm not overly familiar with the G of the G, but I remember a little on the collector from other comics I've read.

I can't wait to go to DC, I'm sure it's going to be fun :)

Yay! Spanky goodness! =D I will look forward to whenever you get the chance and motivation to write it :)

We definitely need the money although I think it'll create stress of another manner the way things go around there. I can just hope for the best.
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From:ladymidath
Date:August 27th, 2014 01:20 am (UTC)
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I think is the biggest problem that moist couples face are financial and work pressures. My eldest daughter works six days a week, her partner who is in the army is constantly getting sent away, and we have the horrible feeling that he might be going to Iraq. *God I hope not* But I see the strain that they are both under from both financial and just plain exhaustion. I think so many young families are just under a horrible amount of strain and stress these days.
I hope you both are able to sort it all out. I just hope the job hours don't cause too much friction at home. :-(
Sometimes counseling can help but I think too that if you both can sit down together and talk, really talk about what the problems are, then you might be able to find away to solve them. My marriage ended because the talking stopped. :-(

I hope you get a chance to see GOTG because it is so much fun. It's the best movie Marvel has put out since The Avengers. Honestly, I can't recommend this film enough, it has everything including a killer soundtrack that had everyone in the audience rocking out.

I love the Collector because I do like Benicio del Toro fo a start and I really liked the way he portrayed the character in both Thor 2 and GOTG.
If you do go and see it, stay for the after credits stinger, it had me laughing out loud.
I am funny in the way that I love the odd, offbeat characters, like The Collector. I don't usually go for the mainstream ones, and villains, oh god I love me some villains. :-D
I have started writing again, but there have been a lot of things happening right now. My daughter and her girlfriend have split up and it was not pretty. Her ex is going to stay with me until she can find another place to live. My son is in the middle of a custody hearing for his two girls, (long story there) and so as you can understand, I have not really had the time to sit and just write. But hopefully I will have something soonish.
Good luck with everything, and please let me know how it is going with your job and everything. Huge hugs and I am sending good vibes your way. {{HUGS}}
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From:ladymidath
Date:August 27th, 2014 01:22 am (UTC)
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Moist couples? I meant most. *facepalm*
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 27th, 2014 01:30 am (UTC)
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If they are moist, they are probably doing pretty well! LOL! XD
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From:ladymidath
Date:August 27th, 2014 02:04 pm (UTC)
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LOL, they probably are. LOL :-D
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 27th, 2014 01:42 am (UTC)
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I remember you discussing him maybe going to Iraq. I hope for all of your sakes he doesn't as well.

We really don't have issues talking as more figuring out what is the root of the problem :(

I plan to definitely check it out when I get the chance =D

I am notorious for waiting to the very end of the credits after literally everyone else is gone LOL!

I usually don't go for mainstream either, although Loki became a mainstream well after I had my way with him ;)

They split? Aw :( Sorry to hear that. What happened?

Custody battle? Geez... shit really is hitting the fan over there isn't it?

No worries about writing dear, you know I'd never rush anything especially with how long it takes me to do anything! LOL!

I am making an effort to try and update more than I was because I was becoming almost nonexistent here 0o
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From:ladymidath
Date:August 27th, 2014 02:15 pm (UTC)
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The custody battle is because she is very inconsistent with the two girls and she is starting to become very neglectful. It is a long story, but hopefully we won't be too drawn out. The stress of it all is really taking it's toll on my son though. :-(
I really hope he doesn't go to Iraq but our PM is talking about sending 150,000 soldiers over there so who knows.
I promise you will love GOTG. :-D
You write and draw Loki so beautifully. :-) I am having a real villain fest at the moment with all my fave bad guys, Jackie boy from Sin City, The Collector, Loki, La Croix from Forever Knight. :-)
Yes, sadly enough they split, I think things just got too stressful and my daughter having Asperger's is terrible under pressure. :-(
That's good that you can both communicate. I do hope you can get to the root of the problem. Hugs
I always love reading your updates and I always look forward to your writing and art. :-D
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 29th, 2014 03:32 am (UTC)
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Neglectful? :/ Uncool. Is she putting up a fight for the kids?

*crosses fingers for him that he stays home*

When I see it, I'll let you know ;)

Loki was an all time fave although I've kind of moved past him now... I think the overkill of fangirls kind of drew me away LOL!

Do you think they might make up?

It's unfortunate I haven't written anything that wasn't for homework in forever. I need to get back to drawing more when I get a chance... it can be hard to get motivated.
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From:ashmedai
Date:August 24th, 2014 04:50 pm (UTC)
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That counsellor sounds...very shady and creepy. I wouldn't be comfortable with anyone who doesn't keep a professional distance.

Nice art! :D
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 24th, 2014 06:32 pm (UTC)
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It's a fun piece! =D She is super sweet to take the effort to make it for me :)

Yeah... lots of unprofessional behaviors there, that is one of the top of the list...
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From:a_phoenixdragon
Date:August 24th, 2014 05:11 pm (UTC)
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Ahhh, Nox is adorable!!

Yay for more hours - but boo on less time. UGH. Two more years, bb!! I'm pulling for you!

Ummm...I'm not liking this guy. Hack is more like it and if he is that interested in your past (which has nothing to do with your present), methinks he is a creep as well. UGH. I would not bother to see him again. What a pig.

*hugs you close*
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 24th, 2014 06:30 pm (UTC)
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Nox IS! =D

I need the hours, we are seriously in the negative this month having to use the credit card to keep us afloat especially since we are going to Dragoncon and will likely drop abot $500 for the weekend in lodging, food, gas, etc. but, it is only once a year, and I am really looking forward to it :)

He does feel a bit creepy, but I don't know if I'm projecting this on him or not. Either way, we only have one session scheduled left, and I think we will call it quits at that point with him anyway
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From:adam_0oo
Date:August 24th, 2014 06:02 pm (UTC)
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Much like everybody else, I recommend getting a different therapist, for a few reasons. One, even if he is great, if you don't feel like you are getting what you want out of it, it will create mental tensions that will reduce the effectiveness of your therapy. Plus, he DOES sound shady, for a number of legit reasons.

I will say, that no matter what therapist you see, you will often have to guide them back to what problem you want to solve. Every person has enough issues inside them that if there was no guidance, the therapist could spend hours and hours working on or solving problems that you aren't really concerned about.

I have literally said to my therapist "I would like to switch the focus now." If your therapist can't handle that, then again, another reason to find another one.
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 24th, 2014 06:26 pm (UTC)
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Your comment is the first I'm reading, so I will have to see what everyone else is saying next ;)

I don't think this therapist is qualified even with all his myriad of degrees he has hanging on the wall. He honestly seems very small town like he has very little life experience even with his age. As someone who has been around the block walking in different life styles and experiences, it's hard to relate.
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From:adam_0oo
Date:August 24th, 2014 07:45 pm (UTC)
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Yeah, I had an experience only somewhat similar. We were talking about my dad and the therapist asked for my immediate family details, who was who and where people lived. This got a bit complicated, as we live internationally and have moved around all of our lives. Explaining the details takes a while, but I wasn't messed up about moving, I wasn't resenting my dad due to our jet setting life style at ALL, and really we didn't need to spend 20 minutes explaining where everybody was right now and where we had been all our lives.

I tried to shut that down early, as my daddy issues were much, much more recent.
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 25th, 2014 01:48 am (UTC)
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What does knowing where they all were now even have relevance in any situation? Strange. Sounds very time wasteful for you on your dime
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From:adam_0oo
Date:August 25th, 2014 01:24 pm (UTC)
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Yeah, with my current therapist, I make a point never to ask her questions about her life, because we are paid to talk about me, not her.
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 26th, 2014 04:44 am (UTC)
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Some people I gather want to know their therapist better, so I can understand answering a few questions if the client engages, but it's unprofessional otherwise as time is limited for those sessions and should be utilized concentrated on the person the session is for.
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From:always_angel
Date:August 24th, 2014 11:26 pm (UTC)
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What that 'counselor' did is unethical at best, illegal at worst. Switch to a new one, ASAP.
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 25th, 2014 01:46 am (UTC)
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Seems like everyone is in agreement with you on that, and I tend to agree.
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From:ficwriterjet
Date:August 25th, 2014 05:11 am (UTC)
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Very cute Nox, and awesome picture.

I'm so sorry that you got a crappy therapist. I've been to two of them, and neither of them ever offered to hug me. I agree with everyone else - completely unprofessional. :( But it's good that you and Jason are getting along better right now.

While getting more money is good - having to work all the time kind of sucks. You're totally right - keep your eye on the degree, and eventually getting a much better job. :)
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 26th, 2014 01:28 am (UTC)
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Yeah, he does seem to be a tad unprofessional. He didn't offer me any hugs on our first visit, and didn't offer Jason a hug either LOL! XD I'm just thankful I didn't have to pay for the sessions as it was offered five free sessions through the employee assistance at Dollar General.

I'm not looking forward to working so many days in a row, but I'm trying to look at the bright side.

In much better news, I got my Once DVDS! =D Thank you so much! XD P.S. What did you think of the Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs spank pic? :P
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From:ficwriterjet
Date:August 26th, 2014 02:59 am (UTC)
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Oh good, I'm glad you got them, and you're welcome. :)

The spanky pic for Cloudy is good. I know I saw the first movie, but honestly I can't remember much of it, so it's not a character I'm particularly attached to, but I still enjoy the pic. I especially like her expression as she's spanking. :)

I went to look at the artist's deviant art page, but couldn't find any other spanky pictures. :( And then I spent a couple of hours browsing other pics. LOL
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 26th, 2014 04:19 am (UTC)
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Friend her on LJ here, and she'll point you to them. She's a cartoonist by trade, so she tries to keep that side of her work down played for work related issues.

Cloudy is great, I got more attached because Lucian watched it like a million times! LOL! There were several scenes that merited a spanking by either this girl, Sam or his dad (who seemed like he'd deliver a good one :P) He's a rare like for me that isn't a villain ;)
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From:thelittlespanko
Date:August 26th, 2014 05:05 pm (UTC)
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Awwww, cute Nox! XD

Dude, I'd say find a different therapist. I've gone to one, and know a ton of ppl who have - that shit isn't normal. Therapists don't 'try to be nice,' they try to get to the root cause and fix it. First session is a 'what's the problem, what do you want from our visits' and a little bit of 'who are you.' Therapy is on topic and focused.

I can't remember exactly what site I used to find mine, but a site like this is what I used: http://www.goodtherapy.org/advanced-search.html Dunno if it helps, but can't hurt to mention, eh?

I'm glad you're getting extra money and extra training! Sucks you don't have the free time you thought, though. But YAAAAAY extra money!! =D

OMG that drawing is Adorable! I love the way his coat is pushed over and the way she's standing on it. Your bud did a Great job!

And, I got screwed up before - so, I hope you guys HAVE a great time at Dragon Con. I'd thought it was 8/23, but then most of my life is lived in confusion! HAHA!!!
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From:spankingfemme
Date:August 26th, 2014 08:44 pm (UTC)
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Nox works the cute ;)

That's what I thought... the more In reflect on it, the more annoyed I become with the situation. Thanks for the link, but we didn't get a choice in the matter (it was a work extended assistance program, and they picked the doctor) I will be letting them know about our bad experience I think... I'm still debating on that. I don't want to ruin this guy's practice if he was just trying to be nice and I'm mis-reading him :/

Training is good except for the fact I know the reason their doing so is to use/abuse me more. I feel like a tool, and an unappreciated one at that. :( Like I said though, the training will be beneficial in further understanding of inventory and how it works.

I love her work! =D I love that she drew them on a hamburger as well LOL! It fits the movie splendidly XD

LOL! No worries, it all blends together for the most part ;)
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From:superfan1
Date:September 1st, 2014 06:14 am (UTC)
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Awwww, Nox is so cute and adorable.

I hope you find a different therapist that make you feel comfortable and not to unprofessional unethical things.

Wishing you the best and will send you many prayers. <3
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From:spankingfemme
Date:September 2nd, 2014 03:25 am (UTC)
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Nox works hard to be that cute ;)

The therapist experience really was a dud, but I think we are doing better now that Jason realized how serious our fights had gotten and that our marriage was close to ending. We have been doing much better now thankfully :)
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From:90scartoonman
Date:September 8th, 2014 04:38 am (UTC)
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Work hours! Consume as many as you can!

Sorry about the counselor experience. But at least you guys were brave enough to try it out.
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From:spankingfemme
Date:September 8th, 2014 04:46 am (UTC)
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I've been getting 6 days a week, so next paycheck should be something wonderful :P

The counselor was... an experience to be sure... We don't want to end our marriage for certain. I don't take a vow like that lightly especially when it's more than my own life being effected. My kids deserve to have both parents if feasible.

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